who am i? mix

all lyrics typed by myself unless otherwise noted.

1 beginning: seeking (from ninjai.com)
2 indigo girls . rites of passage . chickenman
3 the fly seville . carousel . stonewall
4 iggy pop . lust for life . the passenger
5 people: miss coco and (from trick)
6 roy davis, jr. with peven everett . dj mix . gabriel
7 tori amos . great expectations (soundtrack) . siren
8 esthero . breath from another . that girl
9 frustration and ennui: customers (from clerks)
10 kerith ravine . the streams of jettison . a gentleman's strange dream
11 pinback . blue screen life . bbtone
12 talking heads . stop making sense (live) . life during wartime
13 short break: they meet (from ms. pacman)

14 hope: flowers (from my neighbor totoro)
15 erasure . self-titled . intro/guess i'm into feeling
16 pixies . trompe le monde . letter to memphis
17 the cure . wild moon swings . mint car
18 sometimes: disappointment (from the truth about cats and dogs)
19 jimmy ruffin . hitsville usa: the motown singles collection 1959-1971. what becomes of the brokenhearted
20 smashing pumpkins . adore . the tale of dusty and pistol pete
21 archers of loaf . all the nations airports . chumming the oceans
22 dreams: sweet (from breakfast at tiffany's)
23 andy stochansky . five star motel . everest
24 pizzicato five . the great white wonder . the night is still young (live)
25 bjork/disk 69 . bjork remix web . headphones (aqueous jewelry mix)
26 end: go again (from monty python and the holy grail)

i am an only child
born of the wild
riddled to spend my time
defending my land

you are my only one
born in the sun
riddled to spend your time
defending my plan

dead dog on the highway
median cats are growling at me
i turn my lights on brighter
counting through the night ride

one more life for the taker
chickenman

one more song for the maker
chickenman

on the road to athens
i saw a dead deer on the highway
i slipped into a desert
five prairie dogs and a rabbit

i was running down on queen street
i saw a woman on the sidewalk
she was beaten by a stranger
danger danger danger

one more life for the taker
chickenman chicken-man chickenman hold my hand

one more song for the maker
hold my hand chickenman

i was on the road to austin
i met a man on the highway
he sold me junk and conversation
he was wise and dirty from the weather

i said darkness into darkness
all the carnage of my journeys
makes it hard to be living
he said it's a long road to be forgiven

one more life for the taker
chickenman chickenman chickenman hold my hand

one more song for the maker
chickenman chickenman chickenman hold my hand

i am an only child
born of the wild
riddled to spend my time
defending my land

you are my only one
born in the sun
riddled to spend you time
defending my plan

i went looking for a car
found myself beneath the stars
i went looking for a girl
found a man and his world
chickenman chickenman chickenman hold my hand
i am an only child
hold my hand
chickenman chickenman chickenman hold my hand

3 the fly seville . carousel . stonewall
you can't imagine that's her footsteps on the stairs
close your eyes and think that you will never know

she's collecting my machines won't give 'em back to me
we can hope and pray that we will never know

your man's so blind
that she'd be so hard to describe
a stonewall

you can't imagine what your girlfriends used to do to me
close your eyes and think that you will never know

stop living like jesus christ there's a place where we can be free
from the top of a building to the streets below
the last people you'll ever see

4 iggy pop . lust for life . the passenger
source of lyrics

i am the passenger and i ride and i ride
i ride through the city's backsides
i see the stars come out of the sky
yeah the bright and hollow sky
you know it looks so good tonight
i am the passenger
i stay under glass
i look through my window so bright
i see the stars come out tonight
i see the bright and hollow sky
over the city's ripped backsides
and everything looks good tonight
let' sing;
la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la
la la

get into the car, we'll be the passenger
we'll ride through the city tonight
we'll see the city's ripped backside
we'll see the bright and hollow sky
we'll see the stars that shine so bright
stars made for us tonight
oh the passenger
oh how he rides
oh the passenger
he rides and he rides
he looks through his window
what does he see
he sees the bright and hollow sky
he sees the stars come out tonight
he sees the city's ripped backsides
he sees the winding ocean drive
and everything was made for you and me
all of it was made for you and me
cause it just belongs to you and me
so let's take a ride
and see what's mine
and sing;
la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la
la la

oh the passenger
he rides and he rides
he sees things from under glass
he looks through his window side
he sees the things he knows are his
he sees the bright and hollow sky
he sees the city sleep at night
he sees the stars are out tonight
and all of it is yours and mine
and all of it is yours and mine
so let's ride and ride and ride and ride
oh sing;
la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la
la la

oh sing;
la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la
la la

5 people: miss coco and (from trick)
6 roy davis, jr. with peven everett . dj mix . gabriel

he was an archangel of love
he had good news
for those dedicating their lives
to the spirit

one love was the focus of
the true message
everybody felt the tension
time was fading

gabriel playin

dancin soon became a way
to communicate
feel the music deep in your soul
gabriel playin, playin
hold on, hold on

gabriel playin

those that stand aside and watch
the soul movin, groovin, movin, groovin
stand, clap your hands be the one to show
your love, overflowin, overflowin

gabriel playin

just release your soul to the love
that's holding you
that's consoling you
you're right dancing
wear it, to be alive (?)
feelin so right
clap your hands

gabriel playin

7 tori amos . great expectations (soundtrack) . siren
source of lyrics

and you know you're
gonna lie to you
in your own way

know know too well
know the chill
know she breaks
my siren

never was one
for a
prissy girl
coquette
call in for
an ambulance
reach high
doesn't
mean she's
holy
just means
she's got a cellular
handy
almost
brave
almost
pregnant
almost in love "vanilla"

and you know you're
gonna lie to you
in your own way

and you don't need the light
to guide you though this

8 esthero . breath from another . that girl
source of lyrics

in the bat of an eye...
you already think about yourself
and i don't believe all the lies coming out of my mouth ...
try to forget all the things that i did to myself and in time i see it fading

one of these these things just doesn't belong here
and look at that girl
oh, i just don't belong here
and look at that girl

aphrodite tonight ...
she's lifting up her dress and child
her stomach was so tight...
and she feels herself fading

one of these these things just doesn't belong here
and look at that girl
i just don't belong here
and look at that girl

and i'll try to catch my own vibe
leave behind the countryside
who i'll be?
when i'll be, 'cause it's my right to love design ...

one of these these things just doesn't belong here
and look at that girl
i just don't belong here
and look at that girl (look at that, feel bad...)

9 frustration and ennui: customers (from clerks)
10 kerith ravine . the streams of jettison . a gentleman's strange dream

gardens rest in sound
the moon king saves his crown
an april fool boils dawn and finds the wings of a man
the castles are torn and off with their heads in a dream

-- when gods fall into those pictures
and animals crawl out of the seas
a barren cold wasteland is too full
to keep me pinned down with merely a scream --

sixteen fools are shadow born
costing all of their lives
but i was in love
rolling waves called our friends by a name
a powerful white ship has questions about my pain --

laying down on fur and creatures from old
don't tell her eyes the secrets are gone
the cold compels us all and the wise men say
she doesn't exist at all
in a cage i scream

11 pinback . blue screen life . bbtone
source of lyrics

inside the wave

coming from behind the wall
coming from beneath the floor
suddenly i hear the sound
suddenly a door appears
steadily we climb again

the walls close in around me.
old habits fade far from me
the ceiling falls about me
and the sky is open to me now
but my hands are tied
and the ropes are tight around my wrist.
makes me sick
think to hard on the other side
can't stare too long at the softest light

steadily we climb down
step into a hidden room
searchin' for another out
found a tunnel heading down
suddenly i hear the sound
coming from behind the wall
suddenly a light appears
rapidly some something nears...

old wounds get infected by the
heat of an oven gone cold too long
get my mind off the pain with the medicine
just the idea of a thought
brings it round again
let my mind off the pain.
off the pain

bucket and a shovel
on a sand dune
building castles
knocking them down
wading too far
out of my sight
gonna work me over
for a misdemeanor
in too long
out of bed
way too slow

in a found cut scene
from an empty film

forever wishing
someone near the goal
forever pushing
sisiphus would know
forever wasting
promise as it goes
foresenics (sic) show
a summer in the hole, buddy

hands from the sky
rip me open

12 talking heads . stop making sense (live) . life during wartime
source of lyrics

heard of a van that is loaded with weapons,
packed up and ready to go
heard of some gravesites, out by the highway,
a place where nobody knows
the sound of gunfire, off in the distance,
i'm getting used to it now
lived in a brownstore, lived in the ghetto,
i've lived all over this town

this ain't no party, this ain't no disco,
this ain't no fooling around
no time for dancing, or lovey dovey,
i ain't got time for that now

transmit the message, to the receiver,
hope for an answer some day
i got three passports, a couple of visas,
you don't even know my real name
high on a hillside, the trucks are loading,
everything's ready to roll
i sleep in the daytime, i work in the nightime,
i might not ever get home

this ain't no party, this ain't no disco,
this ain't no fooling around
this ain't no mudd club, or c. b. g. b.,
i ain't got time for that now
heard about houston? heard about detroit?
heard about pittsburgh, pa?
you oughta know not to stand by the window
somebody might see you up there
i got some groceries, some peanut butter,
to last a couple of days
but i ain't got no speakers, ain't got no
headphones, ain't got no records to play

why stay in college? why go to night school?
gonna be different this time
can't write a letter, can't send a postcard,
i can't write nothing at all
this ain't no party, this ain't no disco,
this ain't no fooling around
i'd like to kiss you, i'd love you hold you
i ain't got no time for that now

trouble in transit, got through the roadblock,
we blended with the crowd
we got computer, we're tapping phone lines,
i know that ain't allowed
we dress like students, we dress like housewives,
or in a suit and a tie
i changed my hairstyle, so many times now,
i don't know what i look like!
you make me shiver, i feel so tender,
we make a pretty good team
don't get exhausted, i'll do some driving,
you ought to get some sleep
get you instructions, follow directions,
then you should change your address
maybe tomorrow, maybe the next day,
whatever you think is best
burned all my notebooks, what good are notebooks?
they won't help me survive
my chest is aching, burns like a furnace,
the burning keeps me alive
try to stay healthy, physical fitness,
don't want to catch no disease
try to be careful, don't take no chances,
you better watch what you say

13 short break: they meet (from ms. pacman)

14 hope: flowers (from my neighbor totoro)
15 erasure . self-titled . intro/guess i'm into feeling
source of lyrics

i guess i'm into feeling higher lately
higher than i've ever been, this thing called love

16 pixies . trompe le monde . letter to memphis
source of lyrics

the day since i met her
i can't believe it's true
she came here from memphis
across the ocean sailing
and i saw her and i pleaded
why do you come so far and she said

trying to get to you
how i tried to get you
trying to get you

i'm sending a letter
i'll send it right to you
i'll send it to memphis
i know that someday
everything i needed and i wanted
used to be that my head was haunted

and all these sirens they make me mad
and all this violence it brings me down
i feel strong i feel lucky

trying to get to you
said i'm going to get to you
trying to get to you

17 the cure . wild moon swings . mint car
source of lyrics

the sun is up
i'm so happy i could scream
and there's nowhere else in the world i'd rather be
than here with you
it's perfect
it's all i ever wanted
almost can't believe that it's for real

i really don't think it gets any better than this
vanilla smile
and a gorgeous strawberry kiss!
birds sing we swing
clouds shift by and everything is like a dream
it's everything i wished...

never guessed it got this good
wondered if it ever would
really didn't think it could
do it again?
i know we should!!!

the sun is up
i'm so fizzy i could burst!
you wet through and me headfirst
into this it's perfect
it's all i ever wanted
ow! it feels so big it almost hurts!

never guessed it got this good
wondered if it ever would
really didn't think it could
do it some more?
i know we should!!!
it will always be like this
forever and ever

never guessed it got this good
wondered if it ever would
really didn't think it could
do it all the time?
i know that we should!!!

18 sometimes: disappointment (from the truth about cats and dogs)
19 jimmy ruffin . hitsville usa: the motown singles collection 1959-1971. what becomes of the brokenhearted
source of lyrics

as i walk this land of broken dreams
i have visions of many things
but happiness is just an illusion
filled with sadness and confusion

what becomes of the brokenhearted
who had love that's now departed
i know i've got to find
some kind of peace of mind, baby

the roots of love grow all around
but for me they come tumbling down
every day heartaches grow a little stronger
i can't stand things pain much longer

i walk in shadows searching for light
cold and alone, no comfort in sight
hopin' and praying for someone who'll care
always moving and going nowhere

what becomes of the brokenhearted
who had love that's now departed
i know i've got to find
some kind of peace of mind, help me, please

i'm searching though i don't succeed
but someone look, there's a growing need
all is lost, there's no place for beginning
all that's left is an unhappy ending

now what becomes of the brokenhearted
who had love that's now departed
i know i've got to find
some kind of peace of mind
i'll be searching everywhere
just to find someone to care
i'll be looking every day
i know i'm gonna find a way
nothing's gonna stop me now
i'll find a way somehow

20 smashing pumpkins . adore . the tale of dusty and pistol pete
source of lyrics

dusty screams
through doors and imaginary floors
"why can't you miss me?"

pistol pete
removes the final breaths from her unkind
and she is shaken

what does this mean
in love or in peace?
with you lying next to me
so faithless serene

and she calls to him

let the waste
cross the ancient trails to you
far out
beneath the sorrow clouds

let them taste
the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out
through your rusted scars

alone he roams
inside the ordinary catacombs
of her waiting

with raven hands
she steals and staggers towards her man
still scorned by his demon

because he's undone
become the language of
disaster and love
vengeance and dust

and she calls to him

let the waste
cross the ancient trails to you
far out
beneath the sorrow clouds

let them taste
the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out
through your rusted scars

dusty screams
through doors and imaginary scenes
of hurt and teardrop

as he holds her down
in the cold lonely winds
together again
her inside him

and she calls to him

let the waste
cross the ancient trails to you
far out
beneath the sorrow clouds

let them taste
the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out
through your rusted scars

21 archers of loaf . all the nations airports . chumming the oceans
source of lyrics

south of the river's mouth
migration slopes slowly towards mainland.
there, the salt air
fills the gills of the dead bait in hand.

the deep is in riot, the coastline is quiet
asleep and divided in bands.
while beer halls all revil, drunk and disheveled,
helplessly wading the diver is down.

and they're chumming the oceans.
the signal is sent,
recieved and responded to.
the water is red, red, red, red.

we're downed, downed as the hand of god
chokes the driftwood with dead weight and brine.
and spawning the detailed decline
via dorsal cuts, hooks, sink and line.

the anchors have setlled, the tanks are full level.
the flag has been raised half-mast on the bow.
and harpoons are loaded, the cage has been lowered.
the mask's on, the diver is down, now.

and they're chumming the oceans.
the signal is sent
i think he's in trouble.
the water is red, red, red, red.

22 dreams: sweet (from breakfast at tiffany's)
23 andy stochansky . five star motel . everest

this i'll admit
she is a wonder
blind to my kind
won't know my name

and i would give up
my world to meet her
i just can't come up
don't know the way

i'm losing air
don't know which way is up
i'm losing air
please tell me which way's up

her friends always laugh
why such combat
i try and fall flat
they're watching me
and if i come out and say who needs her
who will believe it came from me?

this i'll admit
you are a wonder
blind to my kind
won't know my name
my mind is made up
i'll climb mt. everest
just can't come up
don't know the way

24 pizzicato five . the great white wonder . the night is still young (live)
source of lyrics

bonyari terebi o mitetara okashina yume o miteita ki ga tsuite tokei o miruto tokyo wa yoru no shichiji anata ni aini yukuno ni asa kara 'dress up'shita hitobanjuu aisaretai tokyo wa yoru no shichiji machi awaseta 'restaurant' wa mou tsuburete nakatta onaka ga suite shini sou nano hayaku anata niaitai hayaku anata niaitai tokyo wa yoru no shichiji uso mitai ni kagayuaku machi totemo samishii dakara aitai tokyo wa yoru no shichiji hontou ni aishiteruno ni totemo samishii anata niaitai bonyari kaze ni fukareta 'taxi'no mado o akete anata ni ai ni isogu no tokyo wa yoru no shichiji rusuban denwa ga totsuzen hitori de mawari hajimeru hitobanjuu shaberi tsuzukeru tokyo no yoru wa fushigi kousaten de shingou machi anata wa itsumo yasashii kyou mo sukoshi chikoku shiteru hayaku anata ni aitai hayaku anata ni aitai tokyo wa yoru no shichiji 'christmas'ja nai kedo totemo samishii dakara aitai tokyo wa yoru no shichiji hontou ni aishiteru noni totemo samishii anata ni aitai

as i watched tv vacantly i had a strange dream woke up and saw the time tokyo, 7 p.m. just to see you i've been dressed up since morning i want to be loved all night tokyo, 7 p.m. the restaurant where we were to meet had closed and disappeared and i'm dying from hunger i wanna see you soon i wanna see you soon tokyo at 7 p.m. this glorious city is like a lie i'm so lonely so i wanna see you tokyo, 7 p.m. i truly love you but i'm so lonely and i wanna see you a breeze hits me as i open the taxi window i'm rushing to see you tokyo, 7 p.m. suddenly, an answering machine starts by itself and talks all night the tokyo night, mysterious waiting for the lights at a crossing you are always so kind today again i'm a little late i wanna see you soon i wanna see you soon tokyo, 7 p.m. but it's not christmas i'm so lonely, so i wanna see you tokyo, 7 p.m. i truly love you i'm so lonely, and i wanna see you

25 bjork/disk 69 . bjork remix web . headphones (aqueous jewelry mix)
source of lyrics

(to graham)
genius to fall asleep to your tape last night
so warm
sounds go through the muscles
these abstract wordless movements
they start off cells that haven't been touched before
these cells are virgins
waking up slowly

my headphones
they saved my life
your tape
it lulled me to sleep

nothing will be the same

i'm fast asleep

i like this resonance
it elevates me
i don't recognize myself
this is very interesting

my headphones
they saved my life
your tape
it lulled me to sleep

i'm fast asleep now

i'm fast asleep

my headphones
they saved my life
your tape
it lulled me to sleep

26 end: go again (from monty python and the holy grail)